It has been a long time since I have posted. Life was starting to even out and I was settling into the grind of working as much as possible and going to school while still trying to have any sense of a social life. On January 18th, I filed for divorce. It was three months since Ross had left. Something interesting started happening. All of the sudden Ross decided that he wanted to come back. Why after three months did he decide he wanted to come back? Well, I have my theory. A side of the story that most of you havent heard. I know that he has been talking to people from church asking them to pray for restoration of our marriage. I have been largely silent on the subject because I didnt want to deal with the drama. Quite frankly, I've had enough. Im tired of being made out to be the bad guy because I don't want to get back together with him. After all he has done, no one who actually knows the story would blame me. I am not going to get on here and air all of our dirty laundry, but just know that some of you have been very quick to judge about the situation and not a single one of you has even talked to me about it. That is hurtful.
I will continue to pursue a divorce. God has blessed me immensely through this situation and I do not believe that I am outside of His will in this situation. Not one time, has Beau or I suffered even though I am the ONLY ONE providing for our son. This situation IS what is best for Beau and me. I am a 21 year old single mother, going through a divorce, working 50+ hours a week, and still managing to pursue my degree. You dont have to understand or even agree with my situation, but please do not judge me.
